Life, it can be easy, difficult, depressing, joyous, but in the end, it is the best thing we will ever experience. We have one life to live but we have our entire time here on this earth to make everything count. In psychology we had to write down on our greatest fear, my instant thoughts are failure and disappointment. I am afraid that whichever route I take in life, I will fail myself because I did not choose what makes me happy. Disappointment, I'm not afraid of disappointment itself but I manifest the fear of disappointing others. I don't mind feeling a little sad if I disappointment self because only one person is affected and I know time heals and I will soon get over it, but I cannot withstand disappointing others because I can't control their emotions and now I have me failing embedded in their mind. Life is the scariest thing in the world but the most beautiful thing I have ever experienced. I must admit that I am inlove with life. I love getting up in the morning and driving to school while looking at the clouds block the sun just a little bit to the point where the sun reflects strips of orange, red, pink, and purple spread across the sky. I love going to school where I get to witness teachers who are passionate and students who are eager to learn. I love tennis where I am surrounded by a team who makes my heart skip a beat because of their positive energy and the love that we have for our friendship. I love being home where I get home cooked meals and I am with the people I absolutely adore, my family.
In my heart I know that change is an impeccable thing that will allow me to grow more as a person. I am willing to make sacrifices but which ones? I have no idea. From here I think I am just going to begin to ramble off in different directions, because right now as I am telling my mind to go right, I am heading left, making a u-turn, taking a jug-handle to the opposite side of my brain with absolutely no direction whatsoever. To be honest whenever I let go, I think more because when I let go of my thoughts I feel free, free to do whatever I please, and there is nothing more important to me than living and then I get to ponder on the what if's ad begin to create scenarios in my mind. I was hoping that I would be able to put my thoughts down on paper to make a little sense of everything but I have to go and get ready for class. I shall continue later.
Oh Robert Frost, were you in the same boat I am in when writing "The Road Not Taken"?
